While praying morning prayers this morning (I use the Magnificat book), I found myself being prayed for:
free those who conceal their hearts in falsehood and betray the trust of others…
That slammed me. I do keep many things closed in. I hide myself and my heart so often. Sometimes out of embarrassment; sometimes out of fear that were it known what I really felt that others would be hurt more than by my concealment.
There are times when I’m not sure of the way out of this — part of me says – “Go for it! Get it out and let it be known” and part of me says “It’s wrong, the way you feel, so heal it internally, and don’t hurt anyone else.” I’m still struggling with it. Ouch!
Today I have no answers — just a lot more questions.